Patience, my child...

I still wake up thinking to myself..."I just want to graduate-like right now. This very second." or "I just want it to be 10 years from now already!" ...

But let's be honest...how does having thoughts such as these help us in any way? I feel like it only stops us from going about doing our daily things...almost stall us really.

I don't think having these thoughts are bad, I just think that when we have them, we should take the moment to be conscious of our environment and just take a deep breath. Like I said, the most constant variable in our life is time. It won't go anywhere and it wont stop or speed up for us either...so just be patient.

This is more for myself than for you so sorry if it sounds like a lecture. Just be patient and become conscious of your environment and do everything that will make you say thank you to the heart that beats for you every day and every second.

I think this picture pretty much sums up - well, everything.

Your forever anonymous friend,
Anita.

Time, Time, and Nothing but Time.

Time... that's the only constant variable we have in our life.

Yes, it changes and yes, I know "constant" means it has to be consistent. But think about it...every action we take part of changes and not even our breathing is constant. Time however, is.

Why is it that we find ourselves stressing out over "time" when it is in fact the only static variable we have...this is what keeps pushing my buttons...and let me tell you they are sewn on quite tightly to my skin.

I was talking to my brother the other day about how fortunate we are to be getting a formal education that other kids our age would dream. How fortunate we are to have a car, house, food, and etc. He abruptly stopped me and said, "I know you have good meaning behind saying all of this, but saying it and reiterating it over and over puts unnecessary pressure over you. I am not saying you should waste this privilege but when you are aware of it, step back and don't let it weigh in on your shoulders."

For a second, I was furious...boiling even. But I calmed when I decided to let his words digest no matter how citric they were to my taste buds. He was right wasn't he? It is more important I make this life count because let's face it, just saying it over and over won't do me any good other than put "pressure" to live out this life perfectly. No life is perfect...I know that...especially now. We are all flawed...we are practically like sponges. We absorb all that is around us like hate, and when we are squeezed, what was absorbed comes right out. We also absorb dirt, love, and faith as well.... all that can also be lost in a millisecond if the right amount of pressure is used...

Life is precious...don't put this unprecedented pressure over your shoulders. Make the best of what you have and make it worthwhile. That's all I have to say for this week. Remember to care for those around and remember that your every action sets a chain of events that leads to a different ending each time.... it's a ripple effect after all.

The Power of Grabbing

If there was one thing that hit me hard before starting college, it was this false notion that people say, "You can be whatever and whoever you want as long as you just believe in yourself."

I grew up eighteen years believing that. I still remember going to my first class in my first year of undergraduate school and feeling the physical slap that Life hit me with, which brought me back into reality. When I was younger, my dad asked me, "what do you want to be when you grow up?"

My response, "I want to do charity!" I was so immature and so sheltered (and also ignorant as some may say) that I hadn't even realized that when people ask you what you want to be when you grow up, they're asking you what profession do you want to go into that pays you money so you can provide yourself shelter and food. My entire life however, I never saw the necessity of standing on your own two feet. Once again, I was brought up very sheltered. Not even sheltered actually, but I was practically spoon fed everything... everything. 

Being on my own...living on my own really...was new. Last year was really when the cards turned.

I was now surrounded by people 24/7. I was practically living, breathing, and sharing friendship...I hope that made sense. No matter how hard I try to rephrase it, putting it like this is the only way I can emphasize the dramatic affect my first year of college has had on me.

I was interacting with people I never did before. I was learning the importance of having something called an "opinion." Like I said, I was ignorant.

If there was a social issue or controversy, I would hands down take the side that the people around me supported, but now I slowly began to change. I was taking sides that my heart supported. A side that my brain supported. I was forming my own conclusions now and it was like taking my first steps all over again-but this time I saw it happen.

I saw beauty in things I had never seen before. I still do. I wouldn't have however, if I didn't decide to go to college, or if I didn't decide to dorm. I can say this so surely because I spent eighteen years - parts of which were filled with travelling and attending new schools - interacting with people, but never did I change. Never did I feel like I was an infant all over again.

The difference however, is that an infant doesn't know they are a baby and they are allowed to make mistakes and learn from them. Me however, I was unfortunate or fortunate (whatever fits your understanding) to be conscious of every step and every mistake. It's a pretty big burden- no joke.

The reason why I wanted to post this brief "rant" or "life changing moment" is to make you aware that each and every action has a reaction. I know.. .I know...I know...very corny right?

But it is so true that it's scary. Life is like a pendulum. Everything is massive a the start, a bunch of things happen...but eventually it all comes to an end. The trick here is, instead of using your hands to stop the pendulum effect from taking place, you have to actually take a step back and watch it go back into its rightful place. That's life. Think about it....

-Anita

Just Be You...

So, this is a very informal post for whoever is reading...just me to you, that's all.

Just be yourself. Don't change for anyone. That's important. Now, let me add to this....

When I say stuff like this...this is what I mean...

If the things you do, don't hurt the people around you and there is no harm being caused...there's no reason to change. The second you become conscious that your actions are hurting those around you, that's when you change. That's when.

I think a lot of us lose ourselves as we watch our environment and idolize these characters... thinking that's how we should behave...thinking this is how we should act... but we never stop to think once as to what our strong qualities are....what a shame.

What a shame.

Another thing is...don't hate people around you. This is the hardest believe it or not. I, too, grow envious ... I too grow hate...I too get mad...I too am just human. The reason why I italicized it is because I wanted to emphasize to you that right now I could be one of these people...trying to influence you..trying to make you feel like you have to "be" and "act" a certain way, but you don't.

Just be you.

I am telling you this from experience. The more you pay attention to how others are behaving and the more you change yourself... by the end of it all... there will be more of "them" in you than "you" in you


hope that made sense... but stay warm (at least over here the weather has seemed to drop)... and be you

-Anita

A Little Law of Attraction Never Hurt Nobody...

"Like attracts Like"

Positiveness attracts more positiveness - at least that's how I see it.

Before I get corny and discuss how I feel and apply the Law of Attraction...this picture I hope helps you paint an image of how it's used.

Now, let's add the Anita spin, shall we? Well, not really a spin, but let's have a conversation about this without trying to use big words. In other words, terminology that can connect and relate with all of us...those are always personal favorites!

Let's just say that as a student in college, I've had numerous revelations about life and to be honest...I've changed as a person. We all face obstacles, we all have problems, and lastly we all have issues. Why did she just type a bunch of synonyms? They're not. Using obstacle is classy...issue is minor...problems are something we face on a daily basis. We have all of these.

As I learn to grow, one thing kept pounding my heart but at the time I didn't know the name for it. I learnt that if you surround yourself with positivity in life, positive things will take effect. Now, it wasn't easy to "master" this as you may say. When your surrounded with nothing but negative thoughts, it becomes really difficult to force yourself to be happy. But I realized soon enough that "forcing" myself was only making me more aggravated and essentially making the situation worse. So, instead I looked up what being positive means and this is the first thing that I got off Google, "Being a source of energy that lifts those around you." How powerful, am I right? 

Not to get too science-ish, but our body (the heart particularly) produces electrolytes, aka: energy. Think of it this way, athletes drink energy drinks because why? Well, its to pump in good electrolytes for the heart to keep it going. Positive energy to me are these electrolytes. Our energy drinks is our mentality. Pump in a more a positive mentality and bingo, you have a beating heart (in this case, a positive attitude). 

Now to the corny part...

Though it may be hard to always be happy, a few happy thoughts never hurt. In fact, they don't even have to be "happy" necessarily...they could be things that make you feel positive. For example, quotes. This is a habit I developed as a kid, and like I mentioned before I just never had a name to put on this habit of mine. Every time I was stressed I would write a quote down. What quotes did I write? How did I choose these quotes? Well, this is how...

Sometimes we go on for hours without realizing we are stressed, aggravated, and just straight up miserable. But, the second I became conscious of it, I would listen to my surroundings. Now, it is important to note that I am the type of person that always has music playing in the background... if not music, it's Facebook...i know how lame right?.... Not really. So, when I became conscious of my feelings, I would take a moment to listen to what's around me or in some cases take a break and watch what's on my screen or on T.V. Maybe even to the voices that surround me. When your in a situation like this, you are also vulnerable. So, when I hear someone say something, it's really easy for me to take it out of context and turn into whatever that suits me in that particular situation. I did do the same. I write whatever hits me, down. I don't just read it, but I write it down. Then I hang it up on my wall or desk bulletin board. Done. 

This is how I surround my self with positiveness and it sure as hell will be different for you. Only you are conscious of your body and yourself. If your body is not doing well for whatever reason, take the time and treat it...it's the least you could do for something that works and gives a 100% everyday just so we could function without falling apart.

I'll end with this, it's never too late to bandage yourself. It may not necessarily heal it, but it can scar it...good enough to my eyes. Scars are better anyways, you can look at them and trace your memories and mistakes...life becomes something worth living for when you have lessons and memories to take with you...

Remember to love yourself, always, and be thoughtful of those around you because your attitude had a bigger ripple affect than you think it does. Be positive, and let the energy spread in and out of you. 

Take care!

-Anita 

A Piece of Glass Shattered

There is a lot of bad in the world and there is also good. I've come a long way from the day I learned how to stand on my own two feet to the day I drove my first car. I'm sure you can relate. With age they say, comes wisdom. With wisdom however, comes the horrifying reality of the truth.

I've been through a lot of obstacles, I'm sure we all have. I want you to put those all aside and I want you to just think about the worst truth you've ever come across. 

What is mine, you ask? The worst truth I have ever come across is finding out that the Superman and Superwoman in my life, my dad and mom, are in fact just normal human beings. They're filled with faults and they too can be wrong, but does that mean they are bad people? No. 

Like I said, with age comes wisdom. But thinking about this made me realize that when we are so young we tend to block away the reality of it all. I still remember look at my dad as a hero and my mom as my idol and that will never change. But there is a beautiful innocence about looking at your parents like they're your superhero's and there is a heart breaking realization about finding out that they too can make mistakes. They can't be perfect. No one can. This isn't meant to fill your mouth with a sower feeling, it's mean to make you realize the beautiful reality we live in. No one can be perfect, but that doesn't mean you cannot try. 

I cannot remember the exact day that I realized they were just normal people like me, but when I did realize however, it blew me away. It didn't change the way I look at them because I still put them on this pedestal. It did make me realize though that no matter how much a sponge may be able to absorb it will still have holes. In this case, flaws.

Thinking about this taught me the value of living in the moment and enjoying every smell, touch, taste, and memory that surrounds us.

*I know I haven't been active and the purpose of this blog has lost it's value, but I revisited this the other day and re-reading my own posts and the millions of post's I have stored away in my draft folder refreshed me and motivated me to keep expressing my thoughts. I hope that someone out there comes across this and can relate to it and understands that they are not alone in this place we call Earth. No matter where we are from, we have the freewill to dream, don't ever forget that.*

Anchor Yourself & Let Go

In the 21st Century, everyone is a dreamer and seeker. We look around us and there is competition everywhere, but in this competition and chance to be number 1, you may find your life's best memories and friends. I know I certainly am. My competition is still going, but it is honestly what you take out of it that matters.

At this point in time, if someone has told you that something is "impossible" to do or "most of you will fail" then ...well....they are wrong. There, I said it.

Nothing is impossible to do. Great leaders that we are taught about did not become great. Unlike most people, they did not just act out of a whim, if they wanted to do something they chased after it like their prey. Yea, you may get scratches here and there, but the difference you will bring in your life and who knows who else's, will empower everything and everyone around you.

This life that we have...is just so precious. You may think that you were created to die one day, and that you were given no choice to be apart of this world....however, that is not true. You started from this tiny, puny cell...and now here you are reading this.... this creation ,.. this world that we created.. it in fact is beautiful...

All these materialistic things we have... mean nothing.... but the impact you make on the world does. If you have an opportunity to dream, do it. If you have the opportunity to chase after your dreams, do it. If you have the opportunity to make the people around you happy, take it. The sun rises once a day and sets once a day...your dream however, doesn't vanish at a certain point in life.

Dream big, but dream with your feet on the ground. As much as I want to make my dreams come true, I tend to loose my grip in reality and fly to Cloud-9 in a millisecond. Don't make the mistake of taking the chances you have. Take everything in the reach of your palms and go after every anchored dream possible.

It is easier said written than done... but if you do loose your anchor in reality, understand that there is one other person out there who feels the same.

So, anchor yourself and take off... there is only so far you can go...might as well go to the finish line.

--Anita .... a dreamer in progress.....

Stitches Unleashed

In life, there will always be those who gain pleasure from someone else's misery, but this may not  be in our hands. What is in our hands however, is the people we surround ourselves with.

It took me a long time to realize this (and to some it may seem like general knowledge), but there are bigger things to life and it should not be left for other people to lead us. Each and every individual has the right to their life and the way they want to lead it. The hurdles we pass are nothing compared to the ones we could imagine...no matter how bad we think it already is.

Everyone has obstacles to face, but to think that yours are greater than the people next to you will be the first step towards opening that door filled with hate and anger. Stop and appreciate. No matter how things may be, appreciate the fact that you have the simple things in life like a roof over your head and a meal to eat.

There are things to life that I don't understand, and let's face it, a lot of people don't. But to let go of our control and grip we have for each other and fall into the hole to look for answers is not at all worth it.

What is the meaning to our being? It's what you want it to be. I will just end it at that. I know people who spend their entire life wondering about this, but why? Time does not wait for anyone. By the time you figure it out, maybe too much time has passed? I think each and every individual should continue to make their own individual choices regardless of someone else's opinion and prosper in their beliefs.

To spend your entire life searching for this meaning will lead you to one day find the answer, but then what? You may now have in your possession the answer, but the time spent in searching for it, the love you have lost, the happiness you have lacked, and the memories you were never able to build are colossal.

If you take two hands and pour water, no matter how hard you try the water will vanish in time.

When you have the chance to turn your life around and the power to make it what we want it to be, don't waste time getting lost in the questions and finding the answers...live it as if it's your one and only chance...because it is.

Don't get lost in the crowd...make yourself stand out by making the right decisions... because if not now, tomorrow, or the day after, there will still be that one day where people will look up to you and regret the past they have left behind.

Enjoy the snow for those of you on the East Coast ....

They say love conquers all and it's true, it does. Love is powerful and with that I hope you will cherish all the love and warmth floating around you...even if today you may not see it.